What the ECLIPSE?!
Photo by Steph Luna Kerswell
The Eclipse Season brought up a lot for me. I have been trying to write about it for what feels like months but haven't gotten a word down. If I'm honest it has been one of the most emotionally, mentally and spiritually transformational times in this life (basically a shit show). Things felt like they were falling apart, the old traumas that I have hidden so deeply in my heart began to resurface. I had traveled north with someone close to me to witness the full Solar Eclipse at Symbiosis Music Festival. I was so excited but there was this sense of deep anxiety within me. Little did I know, that anxiety was coming from unresolved issues in my heart that were needing attention. I would say I'm pretty perceptive but when it comes to myself I can be clueless to what I'm actually feeling or thinking.
To understand this experience I need to give a little background on the Eclipse season and what it represents. Many astrologers have stated that the Eclipse was a powerful time of awakening. An unveiling of our eyes to what our current status is in humanity. This year has been heavy in our world. We have seen corruption, pain and unlawfulness within our communities more than ever before. Perhaps we are able to see it because we are no longer sleeping, eyes opened to the reality amongst us.
This Eclipse was a wake up call! It signified shifts and endings, leading to a new beginning and direction. This applies to us all in the collective but first it must start within our own hearts. The time to bring attention to deep reprogramming that needs to take place. Thus highlighting thought processes that are outdated and no longer serve us. An ending and letting go. This shift with the Eclipse revealed to me that within my present, I continue to manifest my past. Call it social conditioning, call it baggage, but I choose to look at this revelation as an opportunity for healing.
The powerful energy of the Eclipse gave me the courage to start living the life that I dream of. After the Eclipse, I took action and began to cut out those relationships that were a part of a former programing. Leaving people behind that I could no longer nourish. Breaking off relationships that didn't really align with the life I envision for myself. Its never a nice feeling unfortunately and we can never be prepared to cut off the dead ends in life.
This was such an uncomfortable season me and still is. I realized that I continue to materialize the same type of relationships over and over. After much meditation, I saw the strand of consistency between them all. I was conditioned towards dysfunction. Issues of my past started resurfacing. Issues with rejection, self destruction, feelings of abandonment and all the darkness of my soul had come out to play. Now that I've realized it, there's no need to continue in it. I am not meant to focus on healing others during this season but it is my time to focus on my healing.
When we are blessed with a season of enlightenment, we then have a responsibility to the collective. We see the illness of the mind, body or soul and we heal it. Because when we heal one we heal the whole. As we heal ourselves we heal the collective consciousness.
Now we are entering a new shift where Pluto goes direct. " Pluto is a deeply intense energy. It is connected with our shadow side, our inner trauma and our ultimate transformations. It is from this depth that we grow, create magic & gain our power. This transition allows us to release and shed all that junk that came up in the past 6 months. We now have the opportunity to lighten our load, move forward and transform our deepest thought processes." -Spiritual Daughter
That's what this rollercoaster of a season has done for me and so many others that I know. People are breaking up, leaving their jobs, and making huge life shifts. I have to believe that there is something more profound going on behind it all and in our Universe. This is preparation to step into the unknown... the manifestation of our dreams coming into reality... knowing that it is better than what we have left behind.
I encourage each one of you to take some time to think about what you've been feeling lately. Is it a reflection of something deeper? Are there old mindsets that you are holding on to? Are you willing to let those things go in order to move forward with a more blissful existence?
“There is no statue of limitations on starting over. Re-invent yourself every day… Be a phoenix. Be ashes. Burn down. Resurrect. Let go of the idea that you must always be who you have always been.” -Unknown